Asterix

This exactly was my reaction when I got the invitation to try out Gmail today :o)
I literally started shouting out like crazy, dancing with extreeeeme joyousness, beating my neighbours' doors (add to it, latching their doors from outside so that they can't even come out to know why I'm doing so :p) ... !

Godddddd!!! I'd been trying like anything for past couple of days to get an account on it, but to no avail.
And Here I am .... with a bright, shinning account on it! \:D/

Please note the Yahoo Messenger link on the top. Does it give you any idea ??? :D

It's time for me to be a l'il confused now.
[Even the title of this post reads so :o( ]

For the lucky ones who are reading this who haven't read my last but oneth post about my interview with ICICI Lombard Insurance Pvt. Ltd. - "Screwed up!!!", better read it before thinking of reading any further, lest you are shot down by my AK-57.5 :D

The result is unofficially out. I'd called up my acquaintance working there yesterday and he informed out that I'd been selected with 2 other chaps, out of lottts of other guys from my institute who don't have any job as of now.
I really wonder what made those guys to think of me when I'd absobloodylutely killed any chances of my getting through the interview :-?
The detailed breakup of package, job location and job profile will be known by this monday or wednesday.

So, now the question before me is - HPCL or ICICI ??? :-?

[For the uninformed few, I got the job in HPCL long back in the November 2003, reporting being in Pune (My fav.city :-*) on the American Independence Day of this year, that is, when I graduate in a couple of months. ] :o)

The average beauty of The Times of India's today's edition seems to have increased today ... Lol.

Past few days have been pretty relaxing, with lottttt of work to be done and my characteristic procrastinating-traits showing colors in full swing :|

Yesterday I'd gone out for the evening with a friend to PVR Priya when I suddently bumped into Sandhya and Rohit. She had the same perfect sparkle in her eyes as the last time I'd met her in "The Delhi Bloggers' Meet". She was just the perfect same-composed-self. It was really great to see her with Rohit - though I couldn't get to talk to him at all :| Stupid me, I forgot to ask her about Kaavya too :o(
It's always nice to come across any blogger, which happens quite often with me now a days :o)

Day before yesterday nite, I had an extremely personal overnite talk with the guy who perhaps knows the most about me (yeah! not even my parents). The kind of things that actually popped up between us were pretty surprising and am I glad that we discussed all, that were drifting us apart?
Once someone(Thanx A) had told me - "Dude! You're truly blessed to have him as such a close friend of yours."
Although I confess that there've been moments when I took disastrous decisions even on premonitions, but this time (Thank God!) I realised right in time to not let this chance pass. He still stands to be my closest frnd ever :o)
God alone knows how much I always wanted him to be my best frnd, but as per my hard-n-fast rules about "best pals", u need to have this feeling from both the sides without sharing it with anyone else. Poor me! I got late by a couple of years to come in his life. He has his own best friend somewhere else :|
Oh! Whatever!

At this point of time, there's this song, "If tomorrow never comes - Garth Brooks", reverberating in my head, the key lines of which send shivers through my spine:

If tomorrow never comes
Will she know how much I loved her
Did I try in every way to show her every day
That she's my only one
And if my time on earth were through
And she must face the world without me
Is the love I gave her in the past
Gonna be enough to last
If tomorrow never comes.

I've lost loved ones in my life, who never knew how much I loved them. Now I live with the regret that my true feelings for them never were revealed. So I made a promise to myself to say each day how much she means to me; And avoid that circumstance where there's no second chance to tell her how I feel.

Why's my life's exactly as in the song?

I'd applied for a job with ICICI Lombard Insurance a couple of days back.
Had the first round of interview on this saturday, in which, without any hassles, got thru. At that time they'd said the final round will be close to 26th or 28th April. So chill!

Today evening when I was in a lecture when someone actually called me up to say - "Arey! Kahan hai? Tere interview ka time aane waala hai!

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Ran back to the hostel to gather all the required stuff, got dressed up properly in no time ... somehow managed to get there Just-in-time (I'm sure management ppl would realize the gravity of the JIT concept .. Lolz)

Anyhow, this is not the thing worthy enuf to be quoted.
When my turn came, I entered to see 5 ppl sitting in a very cosy kinda atmosphere (altho I realized very soon that the chairs there weren't comfortable enuf. So much for my concentration during the interview ... Lolz)
From the very first question I could figure out that the guy (interviewer) sitting next to me on the left had developed some ill feelings for me from the time t=0 (Ok! Ok! I have no better way to explain it). Through-out the interview he tried his level best to corner me on something or the other and I'd, purely unintentionally(???), turn him down thru my reply :o(

A couple of excerpts from my interview:

[I] Hostile Interviewer: Why did u think of joining ICICI?
Poor me!: At this very instance only you had the job-offerings. Quite evidently I came up for your job.

[II] Hostile Interviewer: Why do u wanna join ICICI when you already have been offered a much higher package in ****?
Poor me!: *Other than the bright prospects etc. shit* I'll atleast take this job offer and then decide amongst the two. I'm sure you'll offer me more than what you're offering right now. I'd prefer a good balance between the job profile and the money offered. And now if you say, you'd be offering me the travel expense and PHONE BILL, then that's quite an offer to give a consideration.
[Remarkably, they'd seen me smsing all the time and talking on phone thruout while my turn for the interview had come as the last candidate ... Lolz!]

[III] Hostile Interviewer: You don't mind going to any place if we send you to any location?
Poor me!: Although I'd prefer the metros, but even big cities like Pune or Baroda would do *And a smile saying - "See how adjustable I am!"*

I screwed up big time, no wonders, yeah? Result is expected tomoro, but I've no expectations. (As per the watch, today).

Note: Oh! I love the Dreamplan in AIRTEL Prepaid. Have coaxed most of my frnds arnd to get it activated, and so, their cellphones become PCO for me after 9pm ... Lol! The money incurred even after hourly talks is sooo less, they don't ask for money back ... Lolollolz!

Had a gr8888 time today ...
- Spent hourrrrs of day-time with my favourite person today :o)
- Went on for a soothing walk at nite with my favourite folks in my institute :o)
- Watched the movie "Final Destination" at nite (Now tht's one awesome movie!) :o)

And tht's y am toooo tired to put on more of my thoughts tonite.
Shall catch up soon ... Take care, everyone!

Shubharatri ... ! :o)

Some mundane facts of my everyday life:

- Ppl know exactly when I'm driving or sleeping, 'coz that the time when I receive max. (missed) calls :|

- I've been really feeling sleepy all the time for past few days, so sleeping everynite at arnd 4am. Remarkably, I slept at 10:30pm [:O] on last thursday which was the first time (and last till now) when I'd slept before 2am in the past 4 months :|

- Now a days, I often tend to forget what I'm saying, so .... what was I saying? :|

- I receive smses and missed calls expecting me to call up every now-n-then but I realize that my cost of living is more-or-less simply my phonebills :|

- I took all the sarcastic statements by my acquaintances seriously till one day when I got the sms: "If you see ppl trying to pull you down or talking behind your back, cheer up! 'Coz those ppl are under you and those are their insecurities which compel them for wrongdoings." :|

- Oh! Talking of smses, here's my fav.sms ever:
    If the day comes when I die,
    n go up in the sky ..
    As I'm there so far,
    I'll write ur name on every star ..
    So u look up n see,
    how much you really mean to me.   :|

- With full respect and bowed head, I acknowledge the every-instance-existence of the profound statement: Katana zindagi kaa niyam hai !! :|

Today the complete evening was spent in Dilli Haat. Had gone there for the theatre plays by Sh.Habib Tanvir (Sadak and Ponga Pandit). I was actually quite amazed by the fact that the event passed without any controversial intrusions ... Lol!

Anyhow, lemme not defer from my original subject matter.
When there was a hiatus between the two plays, I generally went around the place to have a look at the various items. And to my own surprise, I figured out that the feeling I was getting by taking a note of the articles was a very romantic one :P It was as if those things were lying there only waiting for me to come and buy those for that special one who shall come into my life :o)

At this point of time I should confess that I don't believe in taking THE relationship seriously at this point of time. I do not put my faith in giving commitments or for that matter, being faithful towards anyone in particular. I know for myself that by being with someone, I'm simply satisfying the urge to be with someone - tht's the call of the moment. Eventually, I shall happily be with the lady chosen by my parents [and I put my faith in them that they will never dissapoint me :o) *Touch Wood*]
And here, I find no harm in admitting the fact that I'm saving all my extremely private emotions for THE person :o)

There's certainly a very romantic feeling in being mushy at times :o)

Just been thru the latest posts of Simple Simon and Paradox.

That means it's just not me alone whoz been through the catastrophic ramification of the path where our immaculate friendship was leading us, huh?

Owing to my nonsensical act of giving a different name to our friendship, being inspired by someone to think in an entirely different direction, pampered to go on and talk over, an abominable lull was generated which existed between us for months, only to be ended by sending a piece of paper to her to easen the situation, declaring that the time had come when we parted on our own ways and cease seeing each other's faces, leave apart talking on phone.

That indeed made me grow, to be able to decide on what I desire, what repercussions I expect, and more importantly, to understand my relationships!
I do not despise the current situation 'coz afterall, it taught me to handle all my other relationships, at the expense of my once dearest one! :|

Oh! Whatever!

Few things that I mused over in the past few days:
(I acknowledge that reading most of them might lead to fatal palpitation :|)

1. Thou shalt live thy life as per the rules set by "the Patriarchal Society" - Enough of pleasing practices :|
2. Thou shalt strive to be on the stronger side - I believe in every relationship being one between "a weak and a stronger entity" (Without exceptions) :|
3. Thou shalt not be dependent on anyone - Even if that means not waiting for someone for dinner :|
4. Thou shalt not keep expectations - All relationships are born to end in some period of time :|
5. Thou shalt prefer to spend some time in solitude to introspect thyself everynight - Enough of people coming to stay over, once every two/three nights :|
6. Thou shalt speakth less - Golden words, if not given often, do not loose their charm :|
7. Thou shalt save thy time for creativity than travelling
8. Thou shalt not let serenity be lost in any relationship - I've seen enough immaculate relationships dying out of no one's folly.
9. Thou shalt accept two unrhetorical facts of life - Change and Murphy's law - For the nescient species, Murphy's law states: "If something can go wrong, it will."
10. Thou shalt not think too much to abide by the ten commandments :P

It certainly seems easy to formulate these commandments for thyself, but lets see how much am I actually able to live by those. It's not easy to lead your life ideally following these rules,but if someone cannot, why can't I :-?
Afterall, what good is it to follow someone's traits?

*Back to musing*

Here I am ... this is me ... !
A guy trying to make sense of what all is going on around him and more importantly with him as he transcends the teenage to gain maturity, keeping in mind, the very basis of his living:
Dream like you'd live forever and Live like you'd die today!!
Tht's tht for the inaugural post .. shall keep jumping in.